I’m heartbroken, I’m tired… I am mourning the past

I promised I would journal more this year. Because I need to. And because I no longer want to find solace in another person’s arms or over a phone conversation. I also don’t want scrolling social media to be my coping mechanism.

You know it’s funny how the older I get, the more I retreat back to an earlier version of myself. I used to want to be so far removed from the girl who used to read books in the library at lunch… the girl who wrote voraciously in her journal… But now I miss her. I’m trying to be her again. I’m trying to go back to my old hobbies and routines.

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How to Forgive Yourself and Let Go

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Have you ever made a mistake you just couldn’t move past?

Maybe you overslept for one of the biggest job interviews of your life.
Maybe you went back to your toxic ex when you knew they would just hurt you again.
Maybe you snapped at someone because you weren’t in the right frame of mind.

Sometimes mistakes are small. Sometimes mistakes are huge.  Sometimes mistakes are micro-decisions that build up and turn into less than ideal outcomes down the road. 

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Why I  Should Have Never Bought the Cake

I should have never bought the cake.
I knew I should have never bought the cake.
 

I bought the cake anyway.

 

It started off innocently, as most things do.

 

After a long day of work, I stopped at the grocery store intending to pick up a few items for dinner.

Harmless things, really: veggies,  some pasta, and fruit. What could possibly go wrong?

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